I'm worried

04/27/2024

I'm worried
What she's doing
How she's doing
Why
What happened
What will happen
How did it go
How will it go
Every second, minute,
hour, heartbeat, breath
I worry

I try not to think too much
to be elsewhere instead
on my computer
on the city streets
at the countryside
around the lake
at otherworldly places

I then ask myself
Where am I
Where is she
What, how, why…
Am I overthinking?
Can we be transparent?
Can we share everything?
And are they true?
Who should I ask?
And who should I trust?

I try not to think too much about things.
I pull out my earmasks,
play something on it,
close my eyes,
dream on my desires,
on my fears.
I then ask myself
Is she well?
Is she safe?
I'm worried.